I have a question, sort of, and I would like to know if any of you can relate/shed some light, whatever. And sorry for it being a little long...
So, I've been dating this guy for 4 years. Long story short he cheated on me several times, then left me. Bawwwww, I know. But I have this unbridled hatred towards him. So much, that I find myself drawing/fantasizing myself beating the crap out of him/choking him, ect. Course I'd never do that kind of thing irl. But anyway, I have been getting really turned on by it. The idea of like, watching someone like that, in pain like that, really turns me on. It's just silly, since this spawned from hate, my loving guro-ness, I mean. I know it might be some sad stupid story, but I'd really like to know if anyone else has/had something similar where someone made them angry which led to thinking things like that, then getting turned on?
Or am I just that weird...? Also, I know many of you will think I'm retarded for being 'angry at him' whatever. But I just want to understand how something like that, can lead to such a huge attraction to giving pain to people, as dumb as that sounds.
TD;DR QQ story, got angry, likes guro because of it. Am I weird for this?
I think all of you are not weird. It's all the world in which we're living. We are the symbols of all that's wrong with this damned world, dreams of tormented Gaia.
You may find, and I think you will, there are creatures much more frightening than you.
So don't be afraid of that feelings.
My brothers ex-girlfriend once told me that having sex with somebody you hate was one of the hottest things she could imagine. He quickly broke up with her because she was mad all the time lol.
So you're probably not wrong on the hate part, and about the violence part... well you're in a place stuffed with people who find that attracting.
I have gone through and feel the exact same thing.
Don't be afraid, embrace it and love the fact that you're so deviously sexual.
{just don't kill anyone, just play pretend like me! Us sadistic girls are alright!}
Thanks :3 makes me feel better knowing there's others like meeee
I wouldn't ever do something like that irl, but finding a guy who'd be okay with that is pretty unnerving. I have a friend who's a pedo, and even he's a little sickened by what I say (no offence to anyone, but I always found that kinda ironic lol)
>>3
good idea) To have someone who hates you makes life more exciting^.^ I have at least four people, who promised to kill me. Fun ^,,,^
>>4
Yeah, it's such a rare, to find someone like you, girls.
So enjoy your dark charm)
>>5
We will rule the world some day^___^
Maybe it's not too hard here, to find such a guy.^.^
Btw, what gender do you think I am?
I wish people would stop asking whether they are 'weird'. Societywise, we all are here. Those who say they aren't are just in denial. Keep in mind that being stranger than average doesn't make you cool. No offense intended.
First of all, you are not any special. Dozens of girls browse Gurochan and they masturbate to various combinations of skeletal beings, monsters, bloody material and scat, with various reasons that made them like such things.
Like you said yourself, you have been growing a sadistic feeling because you were deceived by someone you really loved. Nothing silly about that.
Now, if you were to ever fall in love again, how would you react if your lover asked you for pain ? Sadism in a love relationship is not quite the same as SM play, especially when both sides go along pretty well. I'm sure I've seen a sadistic girl write a post about her SM relationship not so long ago that nicely described how she felt about it. Quite cute, I say.
To answer your question, I have grown a severe hatred towards males due to something worse than that long ago, and I happily live with a woman now. I can't stand physically hurting people and with me being a masochist, she ends up being the sadist in the relationship. Just not the evil type.
>I think all of you are not weird. It's all the world in which we're living. We are the symbols of all that's wrong with this damned world, dreams of tormented Gaia.
That's where you're mistaken. Just because some people enjoys guro doesn't mean they're all f*cked up or weird. Im sure this was mentioned several times before, but guro is just porn, (aka. it's just fantasy). If someone is having a different approach on guro then i advise that it would be interesting to check a psychologist: You never know if everything is going right with you.
And no, not every guro channer fantasizes about beating the hell out of people in real life and gets excited by it in exchange. But as long as that remains just as a fantasy, then that's okay. Just make sure you separate things, since you're already mixing it up with real life people (and probably real life situations).
>Those who say they aren't are just in denial.
You're the only one in some sort of reversal denial here.
Maybe you're weird, but it doesn't mean everyone is, simply because they have the same tastes as yours. I can deal with people pretty easy in real life situation -I suppose im not the only one here- which means im just as normal as everyone else.
Some people in the other hand, are socially awkward. But their tastes for porn alone, doesn't decides whether they are socially innept or not.
As far as im concerned, there are a lot of "adulterous" people out there and they live just as normal as everyone. They even have children - lol. xD
Seriously, your tastes for guro shouldn't pre-label you as "weird", but rather your behavior in real life situations.
Not getting excited means you could probably be sexual impotent, which in turn is not a common thing. So if you get excited over such things, give yourself a tap on the back for not having such issue as a sexual impotence.
Well, and if you just get excited at guro porn, good luck with your probable sexual impotence. >>7
>You're the only one in some sort of reversal denial here.
This always works !
>I can deal with people pretty easy in real life situation -I suppose im not the only one here- which means im just as normal as everyone else.
I agree. However, being overreactive shouldn't make you abnormal (weird ?), either. It's a personality trait.
>Seriously, your tastes for guro shouldn't pre-label you as "weird", but rather your behavior in real life situations.
Exactly. Which is why I said societywise.
My point was the word 'weird' is pretty much subjective and overused in /dis/, and thus doesn't mean anything at all here. Now if you don't agree with this, it's fine with me.
When you see something that looks offensive and bite the bait, make sure to read the rest. Who knows ? A paragraph might have a different meaning when fully read.
>Im sure this was mentioned several times before, but guro is just porn, (aka. it's just fantasy).
Countless times.
>Maybe you're weird, but it doesn't mean everyone is, simply because they have the same tastes as yours. I can deal with people pretty easy in real life situation -I suppose im not the only one here- which means im just as normal as everyone else.
I cant agree with you. You cant claim finding innards beautiful or getting turned on by them normal. Personality wise one might function perfectly in society, but the same can a sociopath or psychopath, so that doesn't justify your claim. I'm not saying you are sick, but you're definitely abnormal if you find it sexy to watch people die or mutate.
>>11 OMG, you're right
I am completely fine and normal. I think masochism is weird though.
>>8
but guro is just porn. If someone is having a different approach on guro then i advise that it would be interesting to check a psychologist
So, by your reasoning, because I approach guro from an artistic perspective, then I should visit a shrink???
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to offend anyone. I wasn't trying to seem 'different' or 'special' like some emo teenager-esq sort of thing. What I was curious was that I know lots of people who like guro (both guys and girl) and they always seem to have very different reasons then me, and I was sure that someone would have something similar.
Nor was I really saying guro itself is weird, or anyone who likes it is considered weird. Everyone has their own reasons, as you all know all too well. Again, I just wanted to see if someone liked it for the same reason as me.
It's just for me, sometimes I think about it so much, like it literally consumes me for about 30 minutes. I wouldn't EVER do it irl, like I said... But it's so strong sometimes. I not only like the artistic values it brings (I'm studying anatomy/biology in university, ironic...) But also the fact I get sexually enthralled in it, and it really calms me/controls my anger and releases it sexually. If that's weird, w/e. But I'm not trying to seem different, or special in anyway. I'm sure there are people who are equal or more into it then me. I simply want to talk to those people to further understand why this is happening, and how they deal with it themselves.
Sorry for the long rant there >.<;;
>>15
I lol'd ! Touché.
>>16
You don't have to apologize to people who get upset when you start a discussion. Your thread uncovered an interesting (albeit risky) topic.
>Nor was I really saying guro itself is weird, or anyone who likes it is considered weird. Everyone has their own reasons, as you all know all too well. Again, I just wanted to see if someone liked it for the same reason as me.
I got you wrong, and I'm the one (7) who has to apologize there. Damn straight. Now if everyone could understand this, we'd browse a better chan. But then trolls don't learn, and some people are entitled to their own opinion (and that's their right).
About the sexual feeling - what's happening is you know you can't do this in real life, because of diffent factors : hygiene (for scat), laws (for gore) and morales (for both) as well as your personal 'alignment' - how you usually interact with people. So you sexually release your anger on drawings. Can't really explain for /f/ because I don't browse it. Just a guess - because most of the stuff posted there doesn't exist in real life ?
How to deal with it ? Depends on how you see it.
If you're ashamed of that feeling, see a psychiatrist (or whoever you think is skilled enough to make you quit) and start an endless therapy that might or might not work, but make sure you're doing this on your own. Or if you have a really strong willpower, do your best to get bored and slowly quit. Now if you're ashamed of it because of the others, that's a different thing. You're an adult, right ?
If you enjoy drawn guro, then why do you even ask ? As long as drawn material is legal where you live, go on and have your fun.
Drawn guro hasn't been proven any more dangerous than explicit sex and violence in media so far, be it as art or erotic material. Prove me wrong with a constructive post.
