Do you sometimes feel just attracted to guro? Sometimes I feel that way as guro can occasionally excite me more than sex itself. Sometimes I find guro more sexual when it doesn't have anything to do with sexual acts. It's a slightly different feeling, however. More like an adrenaline rush of sorts (but still with sexual desires mixed in but alas, sometimes without).
I go through phases, I guess. Currently I'm at my guro loving phase, where guro is the thing I'm mostly attracted to. During this, I usually feel quite asexual in the regard that I'm attracted to the pain, the torture, death, destruction... all without need for another person. On the contrary, I go by bisexual. This is almost exclusively in a masochistic way but I do have my bouts of sadistic desires.
Instead of masturbating last night like usual, thinking about sexual things, all I did was hurt myself and it was brilliant (and piss on myself, but that's slightly different I guess).
Some extra rambling, feel free to skip:
I guess this is partially connected to my synesthesia, too... Guro falls into the blue category. Electric blue. Things which fall into that category are normally are normally not socially acceptable or something similar. It's quite hard to explain. Things which are black are the same except I'm not too interested in them. Guro originally started off as black but has got more and more blue. Blue things give me a massive rush. Sometimes all I want is blue, blue, blue. Some music has it. Some parts of seasons have it. Some people. Violence. Lots of things. The texture of these things is normally quite thick, makes my mouth water... lovely, I love it.
Sometimes the rush gets too much for me... the euphoria gets so intense I can't handle it. This sometimes happens when I can't express, get, take the thing which is causing it.
Sometimes I like guro more when I'm not feeling very mentally well, either. Well, "mentally well" as other people define it. I consider myself well. I'd just say when things are a bit more intense. (This is me personally and doesn't represent anyone else who likes guro... I'm sure the majority of you are well and sane and I have nothing that makes me think otherwise)
Well, this turned out a lot longer than I expected.
Guro is sexual for me. Always.
It doesn't matter if it's ero-guro or just a picture of a girl getting hit by a truck. I'm not attracted to anything else.
When I masturbate, I think about violence, sometimes I make up a little story, sometimes just random violent pictures.
Sex is only interesting for me, if it is humiliating and painful in some way. Bondage, certain positions. I always have pictures of crying, dying girls on my head during intercourse. I know that's not "guro" by definition, but I'd still say it belongs together. When looking at guro I identify with the anguish, the pain and the shame of the victim and that's what I do and feel during sex.
So: No, I don't feel just attracted to guro sometimes - I feel exclusively attracted to guro all the time.
>>2
Interesting... do you always think of yourself in the role of the more dominant one?
Nah, always in the submissive part. >>When looking at guro I identify with the anguish, the pain and the shame of the victim
But I could never hurt myself, I hate pain too much and I'm a coward. I need somone else to do it and then I love it.
>>4
Ah, I'm sorry, I misinterpreted.
(This is the OP, by the way) So, your fantasies always contain two people? Just curious.
I'm in a very strange place sexually at the moment. I guess it's remotely autosexual but it's just... the feelings of pain, the look I'm attracted to. My girlfriend's not really down with the guro stuff, I mean, she doesn't mind that I'm into it. But she really isn't and I don't know how I'd even bring up "Sorry dear, I don't want you, I just want to torture myself for a bit."
LoL, If I had a partner I would trow my computer out of the window.
>>6
I thought serious relationships involved two-sided loyalty.
Also, you just don't throw your lover out of the window. That's evil !
Right now I don't exactly have a boyfriend...but I like to attribute my violent fantasies to my sexual ones. Although most of them would get me put away. It's just the thought of another person in pain and submission that turns me on...not just sexually but...in a stronger more emotional way. I'm so inhibited naturally...and shy...knowing I think things like this makes me feel as if I have a little secret from the physical world. It's very pleasing. :)
>>8
you know it's a problem to find a GF like you) A girlfriend, who will understand you fully and take a part in madness.
I just can't find such a girl) It'll be a lot of fun even to have such a friend, I think.
And what do you think about it?^.^
>>So, your fantasies always contain two people? Just curious.
Most of them, yes. But never myself, I don't know..I don't get hot thinking about myself, lol.
I usually make up stories when I masturbate, because then I have lots of time to think them through and imagine the certain characters in it, the storyline...I guess, that's something only females do, isn't it?
During sex that would be too distractive. When I feel ready to come, but I have to push myself "over the egde", I make up a little scene, for example..a head getting ripped off the body by..whatever, not important.
I would imagine the suprise in the eyes of the victim turning into disbelief and eventually sheer panic. The way the neck streches, inch by inch, until the skin rips, the gnashing sound when the neck vertebras are pulled apart, the tendons tauten and finally snap, eventually the spine cracks, ripping the aorta causing blood to explode from the parting body parts in a thick, crimson cloud..uh, you get the idea.
Regarding your girlfriend: Do you think you would feel "autosexual" aswell, if she was into guro? Or would you rather torture her, if she agreed?
>>11
Interesting way to turn common sex into something what pushes you "over the edge."
Maybe it's cuz such people like us are living partly in the world of the dreams, which will never come true in reality.
But what a pleasure will it be to be immortal and have an immortal partner(just like in the "highlander"). Not to stop when the game goes too far
I Never got Turn on By guro....But Late night I got Really horny from Looking at it...?? ._. freakie
>>14 You see^_^ It's working
I find most guro with female victims very sexual, and most of my fantasies involve some kind of harsh beatings, choking, rape, amputation, eye gouging or humilliation but I can get off on mainstream porn as long as the girl is hot and she's getting slapped about, choked, pissed or spat on, forcefully throatfucked until she wretches or made to lick a guys arse. Oh and cute girls with lots of eye liner crying is always good!
